first ever blog

I have heard so much about blogging so I figured I will try it out. I just got back from the Deeper Conference in Georgia. (Paul Washer, Ray Comfort, Kirk Cameron, Todd Friel and many more) There is not much Christian information out there for the deaf community. I started going deaf 3 years ago. I am not completely deaf but to the point I can only hear in quiet areas and sometimes on the phone. Anyway we emailed the Deeper Conference to make sure there would be interpreters for me and they set it up. I talked to the other deaf people at the conference and they agreed that the only true deaf teachings out there are from the JW's. (Jehovah Witness) Nothing against them just my understanding is that it is not very Christian. (remember I am a baby Christian and not looking for JW's to attack me please) Even my favorite teaching group (Way of the Master) started out without closed caption on their dvd's. Just found out that has changed. (yeah!!) Even most of the documentaries and movies are not CC (closed caption). The Jesus Movie was in 15 languages but not CC. I am blessed to have a Godly husband to keep me on the right path. (he has been saved for 5 years) If you have seen the movie Fireproof it is our testimony, only my husband is not a firefighter but the fights were word for word our old fights. It was creepy!! Any way the Deeper Conference was amazing and overwhelming. I think I got about 1/4 of the information out of it. Few things God showed me was...

1) I had an abortion (my parents and boyfriend forced me and I screamed bloody murder) and even tho I did not want it, I did it to please others. Then I had my 2 amazing children and had 2 miscarriages. Even after having my children I figured it was still a woman's choice and it was ok to do it. My first sexual experience was being raped by a man 15 years older than me. I figured if I got pregnant by that man I would want the right to do it. Then I became saved....still no change in my thought until I heard Ray Comfort talk a few minutes on it at the conference. It hit me and I finally realized, no it is not ok. I sat there for the next 2 hours not really getting much more as my brain was trying to figure things out. When I go tho the 10 Commandments I have to say yes to murder and it is not because I hated someone with my heart but because I did kill my child. I am still mixed up but I understand not voting for a person that is not Pro-Choice and I stand behind it. I did get to met Ray and I fell apart because he has really changed my life and before the conference it was just because he wrote a Bible I can understand. It took me a few days to realize why meeting him hit me so hard but now I know.

2) I am thinking maybe God has me loosing my hearing to help the deaf community to come to Christ. I went street preaching at the conference but it was so cold I had to sit in a ball to stay warm or I would have gotten very sick. (I have SLE Lupus if you have not read my bio) It was wonderful watching all of the tracts being passed out but my husband and I were bummed because we really hoped to see someone street preach in person. (maybe next year at the conference) My husband really wants to street preach but we had 8 police motorcycles parked behind me and we wanted to come home to our kids not stay in jail. Next year we are bringing the kids so they can go to jail with us. :)

I am exhausted and probably bored anyone reading this. I do however feel better getting it out. God Bless